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My first mentor was plastic. At age eight, I received a Talking Adventure Team Commander GI Joe, complete with life-like hair and kung-fu grip. Note his thousand-yard stare. He has seen things.

If you pulled his dog tag, the Commander said one of eight phrases. One is imprinted on my brain: “I’ve got a tough assignment for you!”  I confess, by the hundredth iteration I gripped and shook the Commander, asking, “Well? What is it?” He remained silent.

Created in 1963, GI Joe was the first “action figure,” a word coined to avoid the suggestion he was a mere dolly designed to showcase military gear. By ’75, Vietnam put a stink on war toys. In response, Hasbro created the Adventure Team line—GIJoe as a private soldier of fortune—which seemed somehow worse.

Still, I admired the Commander. Most adult men I knew barely tolerated kids, annoyed we didn’t exit the womb ready to tie a sailor’s hitch or gut a fish.

The Commander never judged. Belittled by his father General Ignatius Joseph, Sr., he mustered out and pursued adventure teaming: recovering lost missiles, poaching tigers, and snuffing henchmen on Spy Island.

The Commander and I performed many missions, but I left childish things behind and met other bearded mentors who we’re more direct in explaining my mission. Mr. McDonald, my high school biology teacher, split class time between teaching bio and playing chess. He liked chess. Once, as we played, he asked, “Dan, what’s the most powerful force in the Universe?”

“Uh…? Black holes?” I guessed.

“Nope,” he replied, “Entropy.”

I blinked. He peered across the board.

“That is the meaning of life. It is our mission…to combat entropy.”

He never mentioned it again.

My teen years are a blur, but that stuck. “It is our mission…to combat entropy.” Entropy, the degradation of all matter and energy into inert uniformity. Life achieves meaning through creation—even if, inevitably, it all turns into nothing.

High school me didn’t fully understand that mission, but adult me met another beardo, Roman Emperor Marcus Aurelius, who helped clarify it with bite-sized Stoic mantras like: “Soon you will have forgotten the world, and soon the world will have forgotten you.”

Thus, I present my grand unified philosophical theory:

“I’ve got a tough assignment for you…” 

“Combat entropy.” 

With a dash of Aurelius: “Live not as though there were a thousand years ahead of you. Fate is at your elbow; make yourself good while life and power are still yours.”

I hope this helps.

Every time Trump returns to his 2016 policy of picking idiots, sycophants, brutes, and all of the above to run things, I gain a tiny bit of hope that, once again, they will eat through each other like rats in a barrel. Oh, there will be horrors and pain, but they are terrible at governance and running things. Just awful. Excellent at stealing, but terrible at leading.

If I’m wrong, remind me as we search for scraps of food in the sewers. Oh, I’ll feel so silly.

I asked my wife Michael to share her earliest memory of meeting my Mom. She remembered the first Kelly family gathering she ever attended. Likely, there were 25 or more of us, celebrating a birthday or holiday or both in the house on Maple Drive. Mike comes from a smaller family, and was amazed at the pure chaos and cacophony of an Irish-American gathering. Being a conscientious person, and a great party host herself, she was aware of all the work that went into such an event, as well as everything that can go wrong. Nevertheless, she saw my mother sitting at the center of it all, chatting, smiling, and laughing. Mike approached Mom and asked how she could handle all this hubbub and hullabaloo, inquiring, “Aren’t you stressed!?!”

Mom laughed her wonderful laugh and smiled her great smile, and assured Mike. “No! I just LOVE it!”

That perfectly encapsulated Joan Roberta Kelly’s life. Mom thrived on interaction and was rarely alone. Going from a family of eight to forming a family of seven, she was always, from the Quinns to the Kellys, surrounded by others and working and living for them. In direct violation of the laws of thermodynamics, while Joan Kelly drew energy from others, she somehow delivered far more energy back. Mom was perpetually in motion for a very long time: as a mother and wife, as an independent businesswoman, as a supporter of Dad’s political career, as his chief caretaker in his last years, and as a great friend to many.

Having been so full of vitality, vigor, and goodwill, it seems impossible for Mom to be gone. She was always full of life. She was so filled with life, with Dad’s help, she created five more lives, who in turn turned out 10 more. And yet, even toward the end of her life, she still had more life to give: to Dad, JoAnn, Nancy, Loretta, Eileen, me, and all who met her.

She lost her own mother at an early age, but could still share dozens of stories about her, how she supported her family, and her wicked sense of humor. However briefly she knew her mother, Mom clearly learned from the best, and retained her compassion, consideration, and wit from Grandma Quinn as she cared for the family in the wake of her death.

Less bleakly, she enjoyed talking about her Chicago childhood and the old days. A few years back, I started giving Mom notebooks, asking her to fill them up with memories. She filled several, recollecting growing up with her mother and father and sisters and brothers in Englewood… describing six to a room in the Burns Building, before the family moved to a house… running clothes through a wringer, and stretching curtains on a stretcher to dry… digging for clinkers amongst the spent coal in the basement furnace… and the multicolor pageantry of the May Crowning at Visitation Church, when Mom crowned the statue of Mary. Mom lived a life that doesn’t exist anymore, when being Irish-American and Catholic was more of an ethnic identity than it is today.

Mom was a perfect blend of both old and modern ways. While Mom appreciated and honored the past, she wasn’t stuck there. I don’t think Mom would have described herself as a feminist, but she was one. She loved caring for us, but she also loved to work.

If I recall correctly, when she told Dad, way back in the 50s, that she planned to find a job, he responded as many men did back then. She didn’t need to work since he was the man and held down the job while she took care of the house and kids. I imagine Mom told him, in so many words, too bad. She wanted to work. Being a sensible fellow, when the extra cash arrived, Dad realized practicality beat the sin of pride.

Among other jobs, Mom opened her own hair salon in our home. My earliest memories are accompanied by an assortment of odors from the little shop in the mud room: hairspray… the hair dryer’s heating coils… bleach… and the acrid bite of permanent solution. Unpleasant for most, those scents will always mean home, and Mom, to me. They also coincided with the joy she clearly felt amongst her clients, who were her friends as well. As I played with my blocks or robots or what have you I heard my mother laughing and chatting with her “ladies.” It reassured me all was well.

Dad’s life was storied. When I delivered his eulogy last December I recounted his multiple accomplishments in political office. But for everything he accomplished, he always cited Mom’s support and influence. In John Milton’s nineteenth sonnet, “When I consider how my light is spent,” Milton wrote his most famous line, “They also serve who only stand and wait.” But Mom was no mere politician’s wife, standing behind the great man and gazing at him admiringly. She did not merely stand. She did not merely wait. Honestly, while Dad was a great speaker and organizer with a incredibly sharp mind, I always wondered how such a reserved and laconic individual made a career in politics. I was too young to remember most of those days, but doubtless Mom was the people person. One wonders what kind of political career she might have had herself. Nevertheless, they were perfect partners, in politics, love, and life.

A crabby neighbor or two aside, I never knew anyone who didn’t like Mom. Small wonder. She had a bright inner light that issued a pleasing warmth. She had another too-rare quality as well: she cared. As a writer and artist I have had a collection of fellow weirdos as friends. Tattooed folks with funny-colored hair, unusual clothing, and different ideas. A few stopped by the house to hang out or break bread. Be assured, Mom and Dad were quite conservative. But Dad was slightly more so, and sometimes looked askance at those who were insufficiently buttoned-down.

Conversely, Mom welcomed everyone. Friends who were lucky enough to have met her were astounded upon re-meeting her many years later, and touched by her ability to remember their names and faces and little things about their lives. Mom didn’t need to bluff or blarney her way through conversations. She knew, because she cared. I’d like to embarrass my sister in law Marnie for a moment by quoting a note she sent when Mom passed: “Joan had such a comforting, strong, and reassuring presence, and a knowing and kind smile that made you feel like you were welcome and loved.” Too true.

*****

The word matriarch might sound unpleasant. It suggests a powerful woman—dominating, white-haired, bitter, and controlling. Most likely dowdily dressed in black and wearing a prim lace collar while running and ruining her children’s lives. In short, the farthest thing from Joan Roberta Kelly (née Quinn), who was, in every sense, the matriarch of the Kelly family. And while we were Kellys we were also Quinns. In some ways, mostly Quinns. Dad was the only child of separated parents. Mom, as mentioned, came from a sizable brood of first- generation Irish-Americans, overseen by two formidable immigrants. The Quinn influence persisted and thrived, in no small part due to Mom. Always the linchpin, always the anchor, always the mainstay.

Before I begin to sound like I’m pitching mom for canonization, I should mention that all that warmth and cuddliness was accompanied by a sense of humor that ranged from the delightful to the dark. That was the Quinn influence too. She wanted a house filled with love but knew it wouldn’t be worth it if there wasn’t humor as well. I’m sure we’ll hear plenty of funny stories about Mom today, but I’ll share just one of my favorite Mom quotes here: “You can say I’m cute, but don’t ever call me sweet.” Who would dare?

*****

While researching this eulogy, I found an entry in Mom’s journal where she recalled her own mother passing away. One passage stood out: “We had a lot of tears. Mom is gone, moms don’t die,” she wrote. Would that it were true. But as I hope I’ve made clear, Mom was always too alive to ever die. This may be her last family event, but she will live on in those she blessed with herself.

Mom’s faith was very important to her, and she was well known for praying for those she loved. Sadly, we’ve lost her direct line to St. Anthony of Padua, patron saint of lost things. Please be advised to keep better track of your keys, wallets, and other easily misplaced items.

She had a special devotion to St. Jude the Apostle as well. As the story goes, unlike the other apostles, early Christians were less likely to ask Jude for his intercession because his name and Judas Iscariot’s were too similar. As a result, Jude took up the slack left by the others, becoming the patron saint of desperate cases and hopeless causes. Mom often prayed for St. Jude’s intercession, saying a novena to the saint whenever someone she loved faced difficulties or troubled times. I think it’s important to note that praying to Jude showed Mom’s abiding optimism and desire to help. In recent times, St. Jude has been retitled the patron saint of hope and the impossible. I don’t think Mom ever truly believed in lost causes. She believed in people. Especially her family, which includes everyone here and whoever crossed her path. It’s fitting then to end on a prayer. I can’t recite the entire nine-day novena of St. Jude right now, of course, but I came across another prayer that seems perfectly apt: the Prayer to St. Jude for Hope.

God the Father, give me hope. Help me to know that your hope is alive in me as I offer kindness, forgiveness, and tenderness to others.

I seek the calm that comes from trusting in your hope and your healing presence.

I trust that your servant St. Jude walks with me in all the blessings and challenges of my life, and intercedes on behalf of my petitions.

St. Jude, fill my heart with hope.

Amen

The first time I ever spoke up here I was 12 years old and a student at St. Damian. I recited a reading for that week’s mass. As a quiet kid it was a big deal, and an attempt to break out of the shell everyone told me I was in. I did it without passing out or running away so…a major success. My homeroom teacher, however, gave me a typical back-handed compliment, “Good job, Danny. I just wish you could carry a microphone all the time so we could hear you.”

I don’t remember if I mentioned all this to my father, but I’m sure he would have been impressed that his introverted son made a game effort at public speaking. Bernard J. Kelly, of course, was an consummate speaker. If you met him, you remember that voice. Deep and distinctive. Able to cut across the noisiest room, but never obnoxiously so. That tremendous voice was diminished by Parkinson’s, but he was always able to make himself heard.

It’s an understatement to say he was an exceptional and uncommon man. Most only saw the topmost layer. The elegant gentleman with the sonorous voice. The politician who served Oak Forest in several offices, including mayor. The triple-degreed scholar who attended MIT and U of C, and pursued a career in law as a third act. All impressive. He always stressed and demonstrated a strong sense of duty and constant betterment.

But what always stood out for me was Dad’s insatiable curiosity. Growing up I knew few adults with any interests beyond their jobs and sports. Dad, however, found life terribly interesting. He didn’t have a favorite subject. He had many. Politics, city management, geopolitics, war, water treatment, chemistry, the law, survivalism, science-fiction, cartoons and comics, and old movies… How many people can run a city and also hold forth on schlocky sci-fi and horror films? Very few, I think. When my friends met him they always said I made more sense. He was a very strange and very normal man. My hero.

As much as Dad could lecture on the above and other subjects, he was irritatingly tight-lipped about his past or personal matters. When he did share, it consisted of intriguing bits about old Chicago. His boyhood pet the rooster… Riding the streetcar to Riverview… Bicycling to Starved Rock… I think I recall him mentioning climbing onto the roof of the Museum of Science and Industry as a lad, but I can’t confirm that bit of derring-do. Maybe he wanted to discourage me from following in his footsteps. Regardless, Dad’s reserved nature never interfered with his desire to reach out and help others.

Despite what society suggests, loudness does not translate into effectiveness or admirability. As a leader and politician he was known for honesty, integrity, seriousness, and a deep intelligence. Amongst the plaques hanging on our front hall wall, I remember one with a gavel presented to Dad in gratitude for his service. The inscription reads, “Speak Softly and Carry a Big…” The quote is part of an African proverb favored by President Teddy Roosevelt. In full, it states “Speak softly and carry a big stick; you will go far.” Meaning, negotiate peace, but show off your strength.

But Dad—who was fond of weaponry—never felt the need to strut, puff out his chest, or rattle his saber to get things done. He owned two sabers, by the way, so he could have. I imagine he brought Lake Michigan water to Oak Forest and helped the town grow from a village into a city through his usual tools of debate, diplomacy, and quiet strength. To my mind, and thinking of the many life lessons he imparted, the most impressive and important things in this world labor in relative silence. The atmosphere. The continents. Water. Forests. I suspect Dad would have made an excellent redwood

I wish he’d explored his creativity more often. He occasionally mused about writing a science-fiction novel, but I don’t know how serious he was about that. I would have read it. I remember a few times when he broke free of his usual stern persona. My happiest childhood memories of dad are of the times he allowed himself to be playful. When I had the chicken pox I lied there in my childhood bed, in the dark, miserable. He came home from work and visited me, still wearing his suit and tie. He asked me how I was. 

“I have chicken pops,” I believe I said. 

He took my Dapper Dan doll, uncapped a black felt-tip pen, and dotted Dan’s face. 

“Now he has them too,” he said, followed by one of those fake “Ha ha ha’s” he uttered when he was joking around. I was delighted. 

Another time we recorded sound effects for a classroom play together. H.G. Wells’ The Invisible Man. We shared a love of the old Universal Classic movie monsters, so how could he refuse?  In one scene, the Invisible Man smashes through a window to escape an angry mob. The sight of Dad in work gloves, using a hammer to shatter an empty whisky bottle over a garbage can while I recorded it with his Dictaphone amazes me still. 

He had a dry wit; almost Saharan at times. But he also always had all the best words, excelling at toasts, spontaneous speeches, and everyday inspiration. My daughter Flannery tells me that when she was much younger, she told him she wanted to be a butterfly when she grew up. He informed her she couldn’t be one…but she was as beautiful as one already. If you didn’t know, when he visited Ireland, Bernard J. Kelly kissed the actual Blarney Stone.

Dad was a quiet but never passive presence. He kept himself to himself, but never too much. He was generous with his time and knowledge, and not just for the community. He was always there for us—JoAnn, Nancy, Loretta, Eileen, and me—attending band and choir concerts, spaghetti dinners, graduations, weddings, baptisms, business endeavors, elections, real estate closings, and more. He was especially there for Mom, whom he adored and thanked God for. While the word cuddly was never once used to describe Bernard James Kelly, his love and affection for Mom was palpable. Whenever he used the word we in a statement, he wasn’t affecting a Queen Victoria pose. He meant him and Mom. Just as often he meant the whole family. He chose us over an extended role in politics, for example. He made several wise decisions for our benefit as well. While Dad would rarely admit he was wrong, he always addressed his mistakes. He quit smoking. He gave up drinking. He added many more years and much more good to his and our lives as a result. I consider those two of his greatest accomplishments.

*****

Dad’s wood-paneled basement den was a place of refuge and inspiration for both of us. Two couches, a long table and folding desk I think he built himself, a battered gold upholstered chair beside a end table with a lamp…and hundreds of books on a thousand subjects on every wall. Books were revered in our house. I was given free rein of the library, and it was here that I discovered several writers and cartoonists I still admire: Ray Bradbury, Oscar Wilde, Charles Addams, Gahan Wilson, Mark Twain, and others. One quotation I recall chuckling over with Dad came from Mark Twain, who said:

“When I was a boy of 14, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be 21, I was astonished at how much the old man had learned in seven years.”

I never had that experience. Even when we disagreed—and we disagreed more than once—I always knew my father was one of the wisest, smartest, most conscientious, and dutiful people I knew or ever would know. He was a thinker and doer who left the world and his family safer and richer for having known him. We’ll never see his like again, and we dearly miss him.

Take care, Dad.

And nobody noticed. I stopped writing, and nobody noticed but me.

Definitely at the “why bother?” stage of my career.